Hi guys!

 

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've had exams and been moving things to get ready for my apartment. My room is a mess. Sorry mom. Summer is finally here though! Not that the change in weather will give me much of a break. I'm back in Cleveland working out and actually going to work. Which I'm sure my dog doesn't like. He's become my shadow ever since I've come home. Not that I mind. I will never mind having my dog love me back. So, not much has happened and there's not much to update you on. My hair is blonder. "Blondes have more fun" is the saying or at least what every girl posts on instagram when she dyes her hair lighter. So I keep getting blonder and blonder waiting to have more fun. But so far, nothing. I think I'm having a normal or below average amount of fun. So that saying is just garbage. I keep waiting for something to happen but the most exciting thing I've done so far this summer is sit out on my porch and drink coffee with my dog. I have seen my friends from home, like most people do when they come home for the summer. One of them had a birthday so we celebrated with an insane amount of breadsticks at Olive Garden and shared the free dessert. This is why I go out to eat with people on their birthdays, for the free dessert they receive and ultimately can't finish because like a fool they decided to gorge themselves on their entrée. That's why I order an appetizer and wait for their bad decisions to catch up to them. But enough about birthdays, until mine comes because it is in the summer. Let's continue on about summer.

 

First off, I'm just starting my first real job and a summer workout. I bought new clothes for my job, which I'm super stoked to wear. I bought a stupid expensive pair of dress pants that feel like sweatpants so those babies are going to get a lot of use. I figured if I look good enough and pretend I know what I'm doing, they can't fire me. I'm working as a social media specialist for our rec center at CSU, so we're about to see if all my time I'm wasting on apps will actually come in handy. I might even start a blog for them which can either be great or maybe not as great because I doubt I'll be able to use my sarcasm there as I can here. But getting a job is a big step for me. I know a lot of people in college have had one for years, but I haven't. In high school I had traveling volleyball during the summer and camps. I was working to be able to get to play volleyball in college, which I ended up doing. Then college came and it was workouts and helping out with things at home. I never felt the need to get a job before because I was busy and tired already. Frankly, I was also anxious to commit my time to something I could fail at. It stressed me out to have someone judge me whether I was worthy or not for the job on the line. Then if I got the job, they would judge my performance and how well I could do. I've always felt I was good at one thing and I followed that, I'm a college athlete. So it's nerve-racking to me to be in the position I'm in. But I'm also excited, because what if I have good ideas and I'm able to make something happen? I'm very conflicted about working and it sounds so lame because I'm aware people can still have jobs and play a sport in college. People in general have worked for years and I'm just getting out there. I guess I have to start somewhere right? I felt the pressure this year of needing experience on my resume this year, and that ultimately ended up pushing me to get over my anxieties about a job and move forward to putting myself out there. Side note: resumes are a pain to make. I'm supposed to know what I'm good at? Unless I'm allowed to put "hitting a volleyball really hard" or "can down a Taco Bell cheesy gordita crunch in under a minute" you know I'm lying. "Can handle deadlines and performing under pressure" ummm yeah I will break don't push me. I don't know what's worse, resumes or interviews because I can sound as smart as I want on a resume, even though it's borderline high school experience, but an interview will showcase my charming sense of incompetence and inability to retain information. I can't win. Somehow I got a job though and that's because they didn't look at my awful resume before they met me and I bet my nervous laughter won them over. It's all about the anxious feeling in your stomach and not letting it make you physically ill. That's my trick. I really hope this job goes well though because I have no other options if it doesn't. Social media hasn't let me down yet, don't let it start now. 

 

So, jobs are scary but maybe fun I'll let you know. I bet most of you already know and don't need the answer but check back in anyways because it's sad if I write all this and nobody reads this. I was going to write about my summer workouts but nothing has really happened yet so…there's nothing more to say besides the fact I'm about to see how out of shape I got with a few weeks off. Spoiler alert: it'll be sad. I'll write more when something actually exciting happens or I might decide to make a terrible quality video on my iphone. Stay tuned.

 

Thanks for reading this summary of my life thus far,

SS